From the time you find out your pregnant, you have roughly 10 months to figure out a plan of action for how you're going to raise your baby. Yet, somehow, 10 months doesn't seem like long enough to truly know. At least, not for me.
I was fortunate enough to be presented with the option of either staying home or continuing to work at my corporate job. And for some people, the obvious choice might be clear as day. I always find a way to make things difficult and this decision has certainly been that!
Like most people, I was concerned with giving up the income (although told time and time again that our financial situation was fine for me to do so). I felt that a part of me would be giving away my independence if I quit- which I still find to be true. I worry of the potential mind-numbing boredom that could come from not having a lot of mental stimulation (remember, I'm about to be a first time mom and have no idea what life in the day of raising a child is like!). I worry that my purpose of being a wife and mother will not be enough for me.
As someone who worked 2 jobs while putting herself through a Bachelor Degree in Biology at the University of Las Vegas Nevada, then climbed the ladder at Life Time starting as a Fitness Professional and moving up to Nutrition Program Coordinator, this will be an extreme change of pace for me. I loved the challenge of growing a program, hitting budgets, devising plans, managing my coaches and constantly finding ways to be the best in my position.
Regardless of the uncertainty, I decided to take the leap, resign from my position and begin a new chapter of life as the best full time mom and wife I can be. My goal is to embrace the laundry, the cooking, the time with my little one, the time with my husband, the freedom of trips to the cabin and Phoenix, the cleaning, the flexibility of working out and blogging. Ultimately, I don't think any mother in retrospect thinks, "I spent way too much time with my kids."
I was completely overwhelmed with the idea of feeling like I was going to be mediocre at everything in life once the baby came. I didn't know how I was going to jungle being the world's best mom, being a loving and doting wife, keeping up with my training as well as serving and giving my company the best of me. I wanted to be the best at all of them but felt that I'd be pulled in too many directions. My husband must have assumed the same (I'd be pulled in too many directions) and was completely supportive of me taking on the full time job as Mrs. Mom. After all, happy wife, happy life! Because I know so many mother's out there that take on the extreme challenge of 2 full time jobs (mom & career), I plan to be forever grateful for this opportunity.
So, as for now...
I'm looking positively in the direction of my future. I never want to lose sight of my passions, but I'm learning that I don't necessarily have to. I've always like the idea of blogging. What better way is there to reach millions of people, covering topics your educated on and believe in and make a difference from the comfort of your home while enjoying all of the above?
I'm welcoming my new project of wife, motherhood and blogging...
Parenting doesn't come with an instruction manual. It very much so becomes a learn-as-you-go experience as every baby, every mother, every father, every family dynamic is different and it's so important to do what's best for YOU and YOUR family. Below is simply a list of what you can expect in those first few days following the hospital.
Had I known then, what I know now... I would have saved every single complaint of pregnancy for the last two weeks. Yes, I would have just sucked it up and been tired. Extra fat? Who cares. Mood swings.. deal with it. Rolling over in bed... that's a tough one... next time I'll order a crane to pick me up and flip me over. Workouts? We totally managed. Less running... I'll run all the miles once this baby is out. Clothes don't fit? Well, duh. Ripped your favorite jeans... perfect excuse for new ones later. Nauseous- par for the course. It will be over soon.